Oct 29th
2nd Chemo ~ Day after tomorrow
They say you can make yourself sick with your thoughts, sometimes I think that to be true.
I have 2 days left until my second chemo treatment and although the last one went very well. Better then expected! I am still full of apprehension and I am pre-tired and pre-nauseous.
Maybe it is not knowing if it will go as well.
Or maybe it is the shedding of hair that has finally made it real.
(Although I am glad to know that they must have put the other stuff in the IV's because the loss of my hair proves that it was not just Benadryl)
And then I read of others that have the same apprehension each time, some have symptoms that worsen, some have improvement. Nothing to reassure you that all will be the same, each time is an experience of it's own.
But it is good to read them. All of them. They help to not make me feel so scattered and lost. It makes it ok to be apprehensive.
Because not every day is a positive day, some days are down days.
And it is ok, because that is why there are tomorrows.
~Mat Kearney~
"Breathe In, Breathe Out"
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