Jan 2
Infusion Bay Round V
Oh the memory of yesterday and the snowy owls will get me through today. Smile.
Off in the snow for the 1 hour handle holding (well for me anyway, hubby is fine) ride. No doctor visit today, should be just straight up to Infusion Bay and hook up and transfer.
Yeah sure.
The Dr. felt that no visit would be necessary (unless I felt I needed one) because prior visits had gone so well. Did I mention that he also called me inspiring? AGREED. But still sounds like a stretch that this will go that smooth.
Yeah we were right, not quite that smooth.
First no orders for me, that means no meds from the Pharmacy. Oh then there is that pesky detail of current blood counts. Yup we wait. But in the end all is well, counts are fine, meds are ordered, my port is drilled Round V is ready to commence.
It is awful!! Trying to sleep, but the nausea is making it difficult. Have a feeling they have upped the pace. UGH.....really no likey. But if I just stay quiet...........just try to sleep. UGH what is that smell. SOUP? Hubby has ordered me soup, and all I can think is NO NO NO that smells, I am going to toss my cookies.......is that the meds that smell like that? That is going to make me puke. Oh that nurse is wearing perfume, I am no longer breathing through my nose.
Nothing like some nausea and the threat of puking to bring the brave to their knees. If I was home I would be in bed under the covers all the way and would not come back out until that feeling was gone. Yes thankfully I don't get that kind of sickness often, maybe that is why I really don't handle it well.
Half hour more I hear her say.
IF I DON'T MAKE IT THROUGH THIS TREATMENT WITHOUT PUKING I WILL BE ANGRY.
And surprised.
They can't unhook me fast enough, I want out. I have to use the restroom.
Cookies are still in place, but I am ready to leave.
I want to go home.
Not even all the way to the car I am crying.......but I am not puking.
And he holds me tight and walks with me.
That was Round V .........fills me with dread for Round VI.
~Cold Play~
"Paradise"
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