RESULTS DAY & FIRST MAINTENANCE

March 20th 2014

And so it was an un-restful night and a n early awakening. Today is the day!!! Gonna find out where we are at and what is next. NERVOUS!!! 

First time for a short infusion not wearing my chemo slipper shoes, not wearing leggings.........chemo is done, we are onto a new phase..........hopefully. Not sure whether to cry or laugh, been a long wait for this day and yet this ordeal seems to have just started yesterday.

I don't think me or hubby have said one word all the way here. To be honest I can't.

We park, after all these visits Hubby tries to park on another floor? uhm NO!!! 4th floor just like every other time please!!! DEEP BREATH!!

5th floor Oncology, time for blood work.........hope it is good,  I did not go after the last infusion.......ssshhh don't tell my Mom :D. What can I say sometimes I am a rebel, but really they did not tell me I had to go, so I didn't. They take vitals......blood pressure is high well no s***.......they change the cuff, better. I seem to have lost 2 pounds AWESOME. Then we are again waiting to see the DR.

Small room, full of sunshine.

Then the knock at the door and in the DR comes. 

"Well we can look at the PET scan, but frankly it is kind of boring." he is smiling, this is good right? Has to be good right. I am smiling back, but I don't say a word, not sure I know what to say. 

"There is nothing to see, do you want to see it?" HAHAHAHAHA YES!!!!!!!!!!

And there it is in purple and white! He has brought up the first scan to compare with this one......my brain is still there as well as all my other organs. But the purple lymphoma areas.........are no more. WOW what do you say to that? Tears escape, as he explains that now treatment will change as far as my infusions (we already knew this) blah blah blah, hoping Hubby is paying attention here, in case he does say something we don't already know. A couple of tears have escaped despite the huge smile I know I am wearing. I have suddenly lost more pounds......off my shoulders, and I feel like I can breathe better LOL. Crazy stuff the mind can do.

He has answered my other questions. I can color my hair!! I can put on the nails!! I can run in May.

BBBUUUTTT.......wait a minute. I have to know. 

"Are you saying that what Lymphoma I have is decreased or are you saying it is gone?"

"I am saying that looking at this PET scan there are NO SIGNS OF LYMPHOMA"

Clear as a bell, got it :D I actually think I gained 2 inches in height at that moment!!

Then it is upstairs we go to see Nurse Jane. I am hooked up to what is supposed to be a piece of cake infusion. Going to wait until I get home to post the good news. That is right make em wait. Okay I can't. Jane is hooking up the Benny I have a limited time to do this before the world goes wonky and I need to sleep. Wait NO I am not going to sleep for this one. I have been freed of a great weight. I am staying awake I silently vow.

But the Benny hits hard and I am nauseous through the whole thing, have to put down the Kindle, can't eat my lunch........and so help me if I move or open my eyes......all of my insides are going to be on the outside.

Really on the easy one?

YES but I kept it all in anyway, was not going to ruin a good day with vomit!!!!

~Bon Jovi~

"It's My Life"

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