Jan 22

The Eve of Round VI

So here it is the Eve of Round VI. The final one.

How am I feeling?

Anxious.

Why?

Because the last round was not so hot and because I don't know what is next.

Will this time be as awful as last time? Gosh I hope not. I am determined to make it through this final one without losing my cookies. Yes I am worried about something I have no control over, but really what control have I had with anything in this entire situation?

Done did a lot these last few months, and tomorrow marks the end of what I consider to be the first step in what could turn out to be a multiple step battle. Probably another PET scan soon......and after that "mystery".

It was about this time of year 3 years ago when I was treated first treated for a severe headache thought to be caused by a sinus infection. HA a sinus infection I think not!! How about a cracked scull.

Cancer?

No I did not expect that one!!

Oh so long ago.

*sigh

I have felt a tinge of those achy bones this past month, hoping it is nothing. I did get my neulasta shot late by about 3 days and well it was a lousy infusion anyway so hoping maybe that is why. The achy bones are definitely not as painful or as long lasting as they had been before I started chemo. Hoping it is just paranoia. Or maybe I will always have ghostly aches.

*sigh

Will I celebrate my last chemo? YOU BET. Reservations for me and Hubby are already made for the end of February (yes waiting to get most of the chemo out of me) :) 

I will not worry about the bills coming in.

I will not worry about the ghostly aches.

I will not worry about the what the next step will be.
(although I will be sure to ask tomorrow anyway)

February we shall celebrate conquering the first step.
Completing SIX rounds of chemo.

Thoughts all over the place?
 
Yes.

8:40 am........will come to fast, and yet not fast enough.

~Lana Del Rey~

"Born to Die"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AddAcFd-SEs