Oct 1st

I have made up my mind, I am cutting my hair short now, before I start chemo, kind of like a prep thing. I decided I did not want to wait. If it does not fall out it will grow back, if it does fall out, well hopefully getting rid of most of it now won't be as shocking. But I am sure it will still be weird.

Oh to decide on a cut. When you have long thick hair any type of shorter style is work. Long time ago I had it short and whew, it was a wild child, not looking forward to that, but I don't want to leave it too long or it will not help prepare me (that is what I have told myself this is a preparatory move)

On the way to the hairdresser am I sad? No, why not? I think I view this as just something that needs to be done, part of the process. If I did not do it how much worse would it be later on down the road. I know it is right, it feels right. Deep breath.....

The lovely that usually cuts my hair is in!!! Did I call first? Nope, like the way I tend to do everything I just made up my mind and went. Can she take me?

Yes :)

So I tell her what I want, and slowly it comes out why etc. She is sweet, let's me know that down the road if I need help with it etc. just call, leave a message, we can get you in right away. We can work behind the scenes or where ever is comfortable to work out what we need to to make the situation easier. I am glad to hear this, and as I get ready to pay and leave she says, it is on her.

You don't have to do that, was my brilliant response, but she hugs me and says she wants to it was her lunch time anyway.

And really at that moment I remembered.........

"& people will be the answer you seek, the hand holding you in need, the heart of hearts, strangers & friends will show you what God's love & mercy is about, and if you let them in they will become greater beings then you thought anyone could be in the face of this nightmare..."

and so I let her. But on the company facebook I left her a message.

"Sometimes it is the simplest of acts that can touch the heart and soul of a person facing an unknown situation. It is those Angels here on earth that make the journey so much easier."

~Domonic Camany~
"Hold On"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3kk31V4CZA