Sept 26th

So today seems to be the start of another go around of pain, leg un happy. Shoulder displeased!!

Oh and the dentist today, I could no longer put off the fact that the tooth I broke in late July will have to be fixed before I begin the Chemo. So I had called on Monday and they were able to fit me in. DARN IT!!!

Overall it went well another root canal needed, was also able to set up my appointment for exam and cleaning, which also went very well! I am dentally ready for chemo! HA!!

Oh yeah and the Dr called, I am not getting the 3 med treatment, board decided to go with the tried and true R-CHOP with a side of cell maker booster and kidney protector. 7 meds..........sigh

Sept 27th

And all the while my shoulder and tailbone decide it is a good time to be awful!! Can't really move my arm. I remember being a kid and breaking my collar bone and I had to move my arm until eventually I could rotate it all the way around and it was not easy to do! Same thing pain wise.

I have attended the football game and wonder if that has irritated my tailbone, that is a new one OUCH!! The worst part is not knowing for sure when it will stop. No maybe the worst part is not being able to do my normal everyday stuff.

Hope it stops before Port install 5 days left to go, before I am injected with a nice chunk of plastic and silicon. And no it is not even boobs :)

Sept 30th

Been debating for weeks what to do with the hair, had a great conversation with the Aunt who is a few steps ahead of me in her cancer fight, for fear that it will get lost in the endless Facebook scroll I want to plant it right here. If my memory gets crazy........

And so if you wonder where my positive attitude comes from runs in my family. This my Aunts take on wig or no wig etc. as she works through her own fight with breast cancer and shares her thoughts. Thank you Aunt Cheryl Funk for your candid sharing, I will remember your words and hope to be as brave and open! 

"Just to let know I wore scarves mostly in the warm weather & most people know somethings not right, rarely people look at you with pity, most touch you with their heart, some just know & send you a prayer. I had may sweet encounters with strangers when I wore scarves. Didn't wear wigs til cooler weather & had more fun with people, I do look really good in some of them, & they don't bring as many emotional responses as hats & scarves, except with people who know you. If you want privacy definitely wear a wig or if your head is cold or because you just want to. If you need to know the kindness of strangers, wear a scarf or go naked which is hard to do because you'll get burned or cold, I'm always wearing something in the house because I'm cold. Most important DO WHAT YOU WAnt!!!!! BE out in the public!!!! Don't let anything anyone convince you to hide! Only hide when YOU need to. People are magnificently kind, generous & thoughtful you will be blessed a million times by being you, sad, afraid, outrageous, happy, angry, whatever the moment brings,& people will be the answer you seek, the hand holding you in need, the heart of hearts, strangers & friends will show you what God's love & mercy is about, and if you let them in they will become greater beings then you thought anyone could be in the face of this nightmare,  turned into a dream of learning, loving & recovering or whatever the plan is for you! Sometimes I get on another track, and I still have months of stuff to go through! My thoughts are: stay open, pray, enjoy, pray for others, enjoy, look up & know there is a plan & a purpose for you & your life & everyone around you is part of that plan!"

~Mindy Gledhill_
"Whole Wide World"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RcLpY0fksU8